this one is public [Saturday April 22nd, 2006 @ 4:34pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | alien ant farm ] idk anymore i feel like i have so many things that i want to do but i cant like im not good enough to do them and people wont accept me i have a problem with myself it seriously dictates my life i want new friends i like the ones i have, a lot but  the same dumb shit keeps going on IM SICK OF ALL THE FUCKING DRAMA && SHIT TALKING life's a bitch, deal with it dont talk to me if all you have to say to me is "omg that girl is such a hoe, she sleeps with everyone" or "she didnt invite me (somewhere), what a bitch" or giving ppl dirty looks for no reason just to start shit up b/c you think its funny or saying shit to someone just to cause all the bullshit that couldve been avoided guess what, i dont fucking care and dont tell me about it because im soooooooooo sick of hearing everyone complain about everyone else i feel like i have no one who is really my friend like i have good friends but 99% of them honestly could careless about what i do im jealous of my best friend, all the time, and nothing will change that w/e, its life i guess on a good note spring break was good layed on the beach everyday went parasailng [sp] got tan met awesome new ppl hung out with cute/hot boys got drunk did lemon drops played volleyball went in the ocean floated on a lazy river [by the pool] watched sex in the city heard lora's "story time" turned 17 walked up and down the streets @ night/day walked the beach went shopping ate some good food all in all a good time pictures will be posted soon either on myspace or here yesterday i hung out with my sweet ass cousin kara we went to the mall shopped a lil bit i got some cute shirts :] ate took funny pictures in the toy store then the guy working there wanted to see them hahaha that was funny it was good seeing her i missed her i've realized boys; they dont like girls with the name leah mccarty [005! ] & [comment] ♥

[Thursday March 9th, 2006 @ 8:58pm] [ mood | not the good kind ] [ music | wreckers ] 'Do you wanna run away together?' I would say it was your best line ever. Too bad I fell for it... And I walked along, Waiting for you to come along. Take my tortured heart by the hand. And write me off. Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry? And it's not the good kind... You forced me to become strong. And I just cried, being weak. And you think you know. And I would like to think so, But do you know that when you go, I fall apart. Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry? And it's not the good kind. No, it's not the good kind... I'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes, I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize. Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry? Do you know I cry? And it's not the good kind... Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry? Do you know I cry? And it's not the good kind... No, you're not the good kind. Good kind No, you're not the good kind. Good kind No, you're not the good kind. ahh i love that song&& its so true [comment] ♥

road kill picker upper [Tuesday March 7th, 2006 @ 4:29pm] [ mood | pleased ] [ music | Rihanna-S.O.S ] this past saturday was fun my new nickname is princess [get it, princess leah] and many others got names too like queen, king, prince, sweetheart, etc hung out with some cool ppl [lys,chels,frank,anna,ryan,jake,stacy,josh,ben,jason,jess,and leanna] only bad part is the gay rumors that were started from it! lol but its okay i think i set ppl straight yesterday was a really good day idk i was just in a good mood went to the boys first district bball game w/ lys && anna we got pulled over b/c one of her headlights were out the cop was being a dick, whats new? but he let her off we get there $5 ...gayy it was jus funny talking about what happened on saturday with the ppl who were actually there it was a good laugh seeing pictures and stuff we played Fenton and we won by like 10? idk we play tomorrow, Swartz Creek going with lys again :]] i hope we win! today started off good then after 2nd hour it sucked then after school it got good again bre was cracking me up on the way home  so she kinda made my day <33 uhmm PDS tomorrow! woowoo sleeping in overall things are going okay good :]] ( Pix from Saturday )> [002! ] & [comment] ♥

yeah bitch :] [Sunday February 26th, 2006 @ 2:12am] [ mood | cold ] FRIENDS ONLY! COMMENT TO BE ADDED :] [comment] ♥

Classes [Monday January 16th, 2006 @ 5:12pm] [ mood | cold ] 1st- Chemistry :: MARTIN 2nd- Entrepreneurship :: LOTT 3rd- American Lit :: HILDEBRANT 4th- Pre-Calc :: BALDWIN 5th & 6th- Co-op :: GEORGE got any together? [comment] ♥

you're love is gunna drown.. [Thursday December 8th, 2005 @ 8:36pm] [ mood | jealous ] [ music | death cab for cutie ] things arent going good, im not doing what i should be :\ its so hard to break habits, its ridiculous.. && another thing, i want what most people around here seem to have it would be so nice just knowing that you have someone there that cares about you just as much as you do them, and be comfortable around them, tell them anything someone who likes you as a person, doesnt judge you laughs at you when you try to be funny, even though you really arent makes cute remarks to make you smile, someone who makes youre bad days better holds you in a way that it feels like they never let go, someone who's always on your mind when youre not with them, it would jus be nice to have that... <3 [005! ] & [comment] ♥

overrated [Wednesday October 19th, 2005 @ 8:24pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | the honorary title ] umm today sucks, its just one of those days...i come to this thing to vent so if you dont like it, dont fucking read it :) i found out that i look for acceptance in other people. i try to change for other peoples approval. im sick of hereing the same thing over. i know what i need to do, okay. it really bugs me that i dont believe in myself, but its so hard to change after thinking something for so long. i am one jealous person, let me tell you. i look at others and always compare myself to them. doesnt matter who it is, then its always the good qualities they have and the ones i dont have. ahhh and it bugs me. i jus want to be myself and i can sometimes. the thing is that i should be all the time, idk wtf. i do need to change, but for myself, not for you, for me. i need help though, but when i do get help from someone i take it the wrong way, always. i always think they're trying to attack me instead of help me. which leads to me gettin upset and not changing. ugh. its a frickin cycle i always go through. i honestly need to be serious about this and do it right for once. im jus to fucking lazy tho. i need a major push. i'm scared for myself. i get upset when my dad and mom are concerned about me. when they feel disapponted in me its the worst feeling in the world.  i feel like its my fault and i screwed up. which it is my fault. i havent stepped up because i think i cant do it. i wish it was easy. it really is a life change that i have to make if i want to do it right. god its jus too hard. but i have to do it. idk how tho. p.s. im growing out my hair, b/c i want too. no need for your negative input either if you dont want me too. k thanks. [002! ] & [comment] ♥

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